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My Head Will Hurt Forever

I know, I know, most of my Sunday devotionals come from The Blazing Center.. but, they’re always writing what I need to remember – so I share!

Something to remember when it seems like God’s ignoring us:

My Head Will Hurt Forever: “

Note: My daughter Beth wrote this and I asked her if I could post it.

I’ve been getting headaches since I was 13, and migraines since I was 14.  I’m 23.

Since the first day they appeared, year after year, they got worse and worse.  My parents took me to numerous doctors, first locally, then in Pittsburgh, then in other cities in other states.  I tried all kinds of medicine and therapies, including acupuncture.  I took more vitamins and supplements than I can remember, tried diets, and read every migraine article I was given.  I was tested for food allergies.  I exercised, I didn’t exercise.  I drank caffeine, I didn’t drink caffeine.  I made many trips to the ER and endured a horrific week in a Philadelphia headache ward in attempt to ease the pain.

Still they came, sometimes constantly for weeks.

I dropped out of college, unable to keep up.  I’ve missed church services and events and spent many nights alone, unable to hang out with friends.

For 10 years I’ve repeatedly asked Jesus to heal me.  My family’s prayed.  My friends have prayed. Even people I don’t know have prayed for me.  I’ve gone forward for prayer in church many times and been anointed with oil more than once by pastors.

Often I’ve quit asking, thinking what’s the point – it’s been so long and nothing’s happened.  Doctors haven’t helped.  Prayers haven’t worked.  It’s always going to be this way.

At times I’ve resigned myself to a life of migraines thinking I was being content with what God had given me.  But I wasn’t viewing him rightly.  I wasn’t believing that he could or would work in my life.

James 5:13-15 says “Is anyone among you suffering? Let him pray. Is anyone cheerful? Let him sing praise.  Is anyone among you sick? Let him call for the elders of the church, and let them pray over him, anointing him with oil in the name of the Lord.  And the prayer of faith will save the one who is sick, and the Lord will raise him up.”

James puts it so simply – “Let him pray.”

And we’re to pray expectantly, knowing God is a generous Father.  Psalm 84:11 says “For the Lord God is a sun and shield; the Lord bestows favor and honor. No good thing does he withhold from those who walk uprightly.”  I know I need to trust that the Lord knows what is the very best for me.

I know God has used this trial for my good.  I’ve grown so much closer to him and am so grateful for all he’s done in my life through it.  So instead of giving up, I’m going to keep asking in faith that he will heal me.  Whether I see an answer here or when I meet him face to face, I serve a wonderful God.

“As for me, I would seek God,
and to God would I commit my cause,
who does great things and unsearchable,
marvelous things without number”
Job 5:8-9

Photo by Beth

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3 thoughts on “My Head Will Hurt Forever

  1. I can totally relate to your daughter…I, too, suffer from not only migraines but frequent headaches. It is so frustrating not being able to determine the causes or to find something that offers relief. I have been on many medications, some have worked, some have not. I pray that she will find relief and not be hindered in life with her headaches.

  2. Have you considered going low carb. My husband has done a lot of studies and he has read that grains can be at the root of headaches. Hope hat this helps.

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